Well last week was tough at work. I've been so tired all of last week, my own fault of course. Going to bed after midnight and getting up at 5am don't mix very well. Been napping for 30 mins or so in the day but that doesn't work as it makes me not tired in the evening then going to sleep late and thus being tired the next day (it's a vicious circle). So today and yesterday i've not been in a mood to do anything, made a few tags and did my jobby stuff of course, just been working from my bed (love this laptop for that lol).

Last Monday i finally found a phone # to call about self-employment so am now almost official...just waiting for them to send me the forms to send off. Nearly a week now but then maybe that's to do with the Royal Mail strikes? I dunno...guess i'll have to call again in a few days. Anyway, once everything is properly done i'm handing my notice in! After that phone call, which took about 3 mins, i felt so positive about my future and i'm actually looking forward for once in my life. Why did i wait so long?

2010 - bring it on!!

Why can't people email you back when you ask them something important? Essp when it's a government department...most annoying!

WW guy is either still on the plane or is in Washington now. Oh gawd...

Saturday is starting to loom over my head now in a 'Here it comes - brace yourself' kind of way. I don't like this getting old thing. There was a guy on X-Factor (i only saw the 1st week!) who instead of being 41 said he was 30-11 (thirty eleven). And i like that. So i'll be 20-14 in 2 days lol.

Looks like i won't be going to London either, Friday tomorrow and well...i can't be bothered and also it's not much fun by yourself. Perhaps if things work with WW i'll drag him to the Tate Modern (i really wanna go there).

I've also been doing a few doodles and thrown paint at them. I was gonna show them online but as is the norm...i put them in the bin where they belong. I should just stick to tags.

Know your limits woman!!

Well hello LJ...tut tut tut it's been a while since i was last here. Knee is much better, i woke up the day after that post and the pain was gone. God knows what was wrong with it. Fecking thing!!

Well...i'm here with news!
Last night i was in WW chat and a local guy who i've chatted with before was there. He works for an American company and is due to go over there on Thursday. He'll be back in December and it looks like we'll be meeting up! So last night i went to bed a bit on the happy side. Dreamt we were in bed together...not a naughty dream tho! We were just chatting and well yea we were nakkie as well lol.
And then the oddest thing happened, he changed into someone else. In the dream he (WW Guy) asked me if i loved him and i hesitated and his face turned to other guy and he asked, this time the answer was immediate.

Damn it, I'M SO FUCKED UP.


You know what i've never seen Star Wars...what with being female but i do love this tag (by Monti)

OMG...My knee is killing me!! I've no idea why maybe it's the actual joint or maybe i've worn away the cartilage over years of standing up & carrying all this weight. Pah! And i only lost 1lb last week. It only started hurting a couple of hours ago. Maybe it'll be ok when i wake up...i hope so, don't know how long i can stand this pain for.

Also had a thought while at work. In my last few posts I keep moaning about being unsure about quitting work, well i noticed it's only when i'm not at work that the doubts creep in while i'm at work (and essp today) i cant wait to leave. So i am leaving.

So there!

Well i have one more week of work then one week off during which i shall write out my notice and hand it in. Looking forward to it but cant help but question if i'm doing the right thing...i just wish i could make my mind up! The closer to D-Day i get the more nervy about it i'm getting. I think i need someone to tell me i'm doing the right thing, Mum just keeps on pressing my buttons...

I've weighted up the pros and cons and the pros for leaving far out weigh the cons so lets all shout at me for being an idiot and just DO IT! Besides...i'm boring myself by going on about it.

And on my week off i'm planning a day trip to London...well when i say 'planning' i mean i'm going but not planned what to do/where to go yet LOL
I really fancy seeing the Tate Modern tho, so guess i'll have an hour or two in there. I will not be shopping tho...i'm not much of a girlie girl, i can not stand shopping!! I get all my crap online LOL

Well guess i should head to bed...i had the most amazing dream last night. I'd won the lottery (it was the £85 million) and gave some to a guy friend i know to pay his mortgage and that made me happy.

I wish dreams were real and real were nightmares.

Mum got me not one, but two application forms for Asda...y'know just incase i make a mistake.  Urgh....

I think i may fill it out in the new year...oh well.

Derren Brown is freaking my freak!!

OK, so i caved in and i'm now on bloody Facebook too
http://www.facebook.com/clairem75
add me if you want...leave a note in the comments who you are, it's hard to guess peoples real names when they only go by nick-names online lol!

well folks who past this way it's gone midnight here & i have to be up at 5am for work. So never a better time to start writing on live journal lol

i think i may be going through a mid-life crisis. i'm 33 so guess i'll be popping my clogs at 66 (if i make it that long of course).

I've hated my job for ages but just got on with it. y'know..turn up do it and fuck off home again. But over the past 3 or 4 years it's just been getting worse and worse. I used to do alot there, stocking up, booking the papers & mags in, doing orders, cashing the tills up etc so i was always doing something. But these past 3/4 years different managers have come in and gone out again and i find myself just stuck behind the till bored out of my tiny lil mind. so i've decided to go. i've been there since i left school in 92, and altho it was just a weekend job for the first couple of years while i was at college (altho i dropped out after a few months - thats another story) it's been the only job i've ever had. The prospect of writing out my CV is a bit daunting as there will be fuck all to write on it lol.
But i've had enough of it in that nasty lil shop...the junkies, wineos, shoplifters, forced to do paper rounds, PITA customers who moan about everything and anything (essp when it has nuthing to do with me) has got me down more and more everyday. If you come home and cry because of it then i'll take that as a sign.

I have 2 weeks hols coming up (1 end of sept & 1 begining of Dec). So i shall write my notice out during 1st hols and work untill the week before xmas. At least i'll have xmas & new year off for the first time in 17 years...even if it is always shit anyway lol

I have some webby work i get paid to do to keep me going, plus savings. My mum is of course shooting my dreams down again, she's going to get me an application form for Asda. She makes a habbit of doing that too.

oh well...almost 12.30am now. Here's to another week of feeling tired and pissed off - yay!!

Claire

PS. I will try my bestest to keep up on here, i do miss writing these things out even if no one reads them.

if i missed any birthdays then i hope it was special xx

Hello all...

I've not written anything over here for ages (Aug last year! oop).
I spend most of my time on Twitter now so c'mon over & follow me!
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I may write something up here one day lol